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Maja is starting kindergarten today. We have been there for shorter times the last two weeks, but now she's going to be there between 7.45 and 16.30 since Rickard started working again today. It feels very strange, my little baby, she's so small! She waved goodbye happily when I left, but it still feels odd.
Oct. 3rd, 2005
I'm not pretty anymore
Oct. 3rd, 2005 12:46 pmSo I went to a bar with some friends on saturday. It was fun (first time for two years or so), but I also made a discovery: I'm not attractive anymore! Nobody looked at me or talked to me!
This is not something that has come suddenly, only my understanding of it. It explains a lot of my experiences the last 8 years or so, both when going out and on other social occasions. When I was younger I was, maybe not very pretty, but attractive and I could always count on some male attention when I went to bars, discos, parties etc. The last years I could just as well have been invisible. And it's not that I'm shy or anything, as you probably know, they're just not interested.
I don't like this. In this specific case it wasn't that I was older since most people were around 40 or above and the youngest probably in their late twenties. I admit that I am fatter than a lot of people, but not that fat. I also had less make-up, but that hasn't scared people before. So there I was, feeling reasonably pretty, with a nice v-neck opening and something to show in it ;) and loose, long hair and no-one even looked at me!
What's wrong with me???
I don't want to meet someone, I'm happy as it is, but it would be nice if people at least noticed me. Sometimes you need to feel pretty.
This is not something that has come suddenly, only my understanding of it. It explains a lot of my experiences the last 8 years or so, both when going out and on other social occasions. When I was younger I was, maybe not very pretty, but attractive and I could always count on some male attention when I went to bars, discos, parties etc. The last years I could just as well have been invisible. And it's not that I'm shy or anything, as you probably know, they're just not interested.
I don't like this. In this specific case it wasn't that I was older since most people were around 40 or above and the youngest probably in their late twenties. I admit that I am fatter than a lot of people, but not that fat. I also had less make-up, but that hasn't scared people before. So there I was, feeling reasonably pretty, with a nice v-neck opening and something to show in it ;) and loose, long hair and no-one even looked at me!
What's wrong with me???
I don't want to meet someone, I'm happy as it is, but it would be nice if people at least noticed me. Sometimes you need to feel pretty.
