Health - exhaustion

[frualeydis]

Yesterday I went to the health centre that belongs to the university and which will handle my rehabilitation. I had a great meeting with the female physician and I will be on 100% sick leave at least until the end of September. We also discussed my suspiscion, or rather conviction, that I have a neuropsychiatric diagnose and she agreed with my thoughts. SO I ahve now sent a letter to a company who does assessments for that wand we will see where that leads. 

I have suspected this all the time since Valeria got her autism diagnosis. But if I didn't also have the pain from the arhtirtis i think that I could have handled it until I retired - I am good at masking (explanation here) and finding coping strategies. But handling autism takes  energy, and handling chronic pain also takes energy. And I have (had) a will of iron which made it possible to push myself constantly. Until it snapped.

As you know I have been denied sick leave or disability benefits for my arthritis and it is ratherobvious that this has caused many of my heath problems: the Graves' disease of 2011-2012, the hole in my duedoneum and stomach of 2013 which nearly killed me, and now my exhasution, which has been a long time coming.

But maybe, maybe, if i get this diagnosis it will get a little easier to get permanent disability - or even just that they accept longer sick leave beacuse of my pain.

However, I don't know anything at this moment, I am just very grateful for this contact with the doctor.

PS. I am not unhappy, I am actually enjoying life a lot most of the times, but of course there is sorrow for what I cannot do, and frustration, since it didn't have to be this way.

PPS. I have taken photos of my new 12th century gown and they look fab!

Comments

[kareina]

Yay for good meeting with a doc and having the sick leave for now. Hope that you can get the help you need, either with somehow having a body that isn't sick (unlikely, but as long as I am wishing...), or with the appropriate care so you don't have to push too hard and can just enjoy the parts of life that don't hurt.

Looking forward to the photos!

[therru]

I got my autism diagnosis at the beginning of last year. It was a tremendous relief. (I haven't told very many people yet, but since you were open about doing an evaluation I feel pretty safe telling you here.)

[frualeydis]

I think that it will be a relief to me too, especially since it migh help handling Försäkringskassan.

/Eva

[korpikuusi]

I find it very interesting how many women make it to very far in life without getting an autism diagnosis, for all the reasons you mention and that pop up if you do reading online. I'm glad things are proceeding well.

[frualeydis]

Yes, there are a lot of us. Well, I think that I have autism, and my doctor thinks so, so now we just have to find out if that is the case.

/Eva