Thanks for all encouragement yesterday. it was not that I ever wanted to look like Gwyneth Paltrow it was just the realization that this huge overweight that "one must understand that she wanted to loose" was probably less then I weigh. It is deceptive to talk about twenty kilos of overweight, because anyone would think that that was horrible, I mean: I wouldn't want to gain twenty kilos on top of my weight, and than you realized that this horrible weight is what I weigh.