The road not taken

[frualeydis]

I dreamed about an old friend last night and today I discovered that he has a blog. It's a totally un-personal, political blog, but still. I like seeing what people do.
We were really good friends in the years around 1990 when we and a few others were the driving forces in different kinds of political activism, mostly directed at environmental issue, but also about worker's rights and other solidarity issues.
When I met the father of the twins I had been doing this for many years and was quite burnt out on activism and when I had the twins I just dropped out of that environment. And except for a short while around the EU Summit in Göteborg 2001 (pretty neutral and accurate article) I haven't gotten back.
I am happy with my life, but sometimes I miss those days, and feel guilty about my current inactivity; where I use my energy to take care of my family and enjoying myself (aka sewing).

Anyway, Kalle, as his name is, continued with politics and went on to the parliament, where I know he's doing a lot of good. He really is a person I trust. I don't think we've met and sat down and talked for almost ten years, but it doesn't matter; I would trust him with my life, and I would fight well to save his.
But I wonder, if I had chosen politics, where would I have been now? I applied for a job at the party once, that I didn't get, but what if I had got it? For one, I would have been living in Stockholm. And maybe Rickard and I wouldn't have been together?

Comments

[mirazandar.livejournal.com]

nå er det bare fire år siden jeg slutta, men det hender jeg tenker det samme. Jeg møter venner som er i RVs sentralstyre og jobber og brenner, men når jeg tenker tanken at kanskje kanskje jeg skulle starte igjen, høres det bare slitsomt ut.

[therru.livejournal.com]

I know what you are talking about. I dropped out of political activism around the same time as you, but for different reasons. I still have the same ideals (perhaps a bit mellowed/matured), but I don't have the fire and drive anymore. The batteries sort of ran down...

[frualeydis.livejournal.com]

A very apt description, it's like the spark has died.

/Eva

[myralea.livejournal.com]

although i would have loved to have had you in stockholm, i think rickard is better than politics :)

i try to believe being genuinly happy is also a way of making the world better place to be.
at least that is what an american collegue of mine, who was sa buddhist, told me those dark days in september 2001, when i was feeling so totally useless for only being a conservator and not doing anything good for the world at all.

/m