Scared of what I might find

[frualeydis]

I have now found the rejection letter from one of the institutions I applied for research funding from. It came in October and I have not read it. I already knew I didn't get money from them and just after I got the rejection from Riksbanken (the fund I had most of a chance with) I didn't have the strength to read it. But now, when I'm going to send in a new, better application I must read it. Except that I don't dare.
I think I will sit down and sew for a while instead.