I am giving myself this

[frualeydis]

When hanging with one of my closest friends, who also has a chronic illness (or rather: several, and worse than me), recently she asked if I really had the strength and energy to be baroness of Gotvik. And I answered that I am giving myself this.

And that's how it is: all these years, while teaching and having no official time for research I have done research, gone to conferences and written articles. Both because it's fun and because if I want a job that's what I have to do.

But since a year I have a steady job on 50% (and I can't ever work more than that). And yes, I am working on articles, but the two I'm working on now will be the last for a while, maybe a couple of years. Instead I will focus on making my teaching better, the thing I'm actually paid to do.

And on my free time i will go to more events and get more involved in the SCA. I will continue writing blog posts about historical dress and even write something for an SCA newsletter, not just for scholarly journals.

I am giving myself this and I am very happy.

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[frualeydis.livejournal.com]

That seems really horrible. My friend was opnly concerned with what I could handle, since she's close enough to me to know what everything "costs" (especially since she has Myastenia gravis herself). But it made me see that it really was a gift I've decided to give myself and what it means in terms of production of scholarly articles the coming two years. But that's a price I can pay, I've written quite a lot of them.

/Eva